Tonight I sucked...

Ugh. Tonight I had a horrible rehearsal for Sky. It was supposed to be a sharing night with the other groups that had shows. Only one other group showed up at the beginning, so we waited a bit (read: wasted 1/2 an hour) then we watched each other's play. I sucked bad. I have only had 3 rehearsals and haven't had a lot of time on my own to work on the thing, but it was worse than I thought it would be. I was challenged by the task because I didn't feel we were ready to share it (rehearsal vs. performance) and I felt tense and unprepared so that didn't help. I had to give up the lines at certain points because the chronology of the lines within the scenes skipped around a bit and I can't really do much about that. When we finished, we struck and then one of the other groups showed up. I wanted to work and I was a little cranky about having to watch this group that didn't watch us, so I got out of it and a few of us went out and ran sections. The whole night felt so sloppy. Really, if I am going to drive out to Spruce Grove in January I want to work for the 3 hours. A three hour rehearsal for me is actually 4.5-5 hours when you count in travel time. I felt like only 50% of my time was used to some effect tonight. I am pretty sure I came off a little cranky, but I was pissed off by the wasted time and the lack of courtesy. The only way I am going to get these lines is through repetition and I am not getting it. I am also ticked at the other groups since it was made clear to us that we were doing this sharing thing, but there was no apology, no one seemed in charge and one group didn't even show up at all. Maybe if I understood the purpose of the whole thing I would be more understanding about it.